Pity Party


Once, you learned to
swallow a pill.
Doctor said it would
help sugar coat
your daddy’s screwing
of another woman.
Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,
but you didn’t buy
that you were treatable
because the pot, cocaine,
ecstasy, and booze bummed you out.

Excelling at fits, bitching and silent,
with pride and disgust
because it’s alright to cry,
but it’s better if others cry.
Bitch about your flat tire,
and the bad hand God dealt you.
Daddy screwed another woman.
It’s practically cliché,
except it’s your truth,
You try and make truth unique
with overdoses and miniskirts.
Make me understand how it
devastated you to the point
that you can’t shower.

And how do I force you
to swallow that pill?
Choke down that piece of shit
this day and every day
until it’s your routine,
like daddy’s Saturday nights.